Miracles News

September-December, 2025

I Am as God Created Me

by Erica Leftus, Ordained Ministerial Counselor

I sat with a loved one outside our local café yesterday. As we watched the sea view, the seagulls, the dogs walking their owners, and the general comings and goings of the café’s patrons, I noticed an unease within me.

Nothing was wrong. I was with someone I loved. I was enjoying a beautiful morning. But I had this unease, this restlessness within me and a question in my mind, “When will I be content?”

I am having a career transition, and I have never really done the work I feel I was truly called to do, so at 51, I have been studying to help others in the spiritual way that would bring me the most joy, counseling informed and inspired by the teachings of A Course in Miracles.

As I was noticing a mild annoyance about myself as a result of my unease, I noticed a man walk towards us, joyfully holding his baby, with his wife beside him. Radiantly he beamed a smile at me, while I was holding a baby of my own — our toy poodle!

We shared a recognition between us that we were holding something innocent and beautiful in our arms; a being to love.

This man then sat down with his wife. His baby was wearing a beautiful woollen jersey. He looked so comfortable, so warm, so content — there it was! He had what I wanted! I watched as his parents, who obviously loved each other, doted on this little baby boy… “Do you want your snack? Do you want your toy truck? And yes, “Yay,” no technology was in sight to occupy this child! His parents just wanted to be together and to be with him. This boy was, if my observation was correct, going to be a very secure, and dare I say, happy adult when he grew up.

So many people miss out on this great start this child was having, even though all parents are always doing the best they can! But it was a wonderful message to me, that it’s not too late. Even if we didn’t get that idyllic childhood, we are adults now, and we have within us all the resources that our inner children within us need.

It reminds me of a little insight I had the other day — we have our childhoods where we make all our meaning, and we get a do-over in adulthood where the same patterns emerge, the same dynamics in relating are still there, but as we are adults now, we can heal the past by being conscious in the present.

I know this very well after having just become certified in the Pathways of Light, Healing Inner Child 8-week Program which I believe in and love so much and I am so excited to be facilitating.

For me, what this illustrates is a pattern of having decided an untruth about ourselves when we were children — that we were not good enough in some way — and now as adults, we get to forgive ourselves for having believed we were anything less than one of God’s eternally beloved children. Such freedom in that! I am still as God created me. See lessons 94, 110, 162, 219 and review of Lesson 199.

Rev. Erica Leftus, OMC, is a Pathways of Light minister living in New Zealand.
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