Miracles News

April-June, 2011

Journaling with Holy Spirit

by Rev. Linda Wisniewski

I wake up at 4 a.m. with a restless mind. I plead to Holy Spirit: “Dear Holy Spirit, my mind is restless. What should I do with my life, now that I am retired? What should I do with my time, now that I am not working? Should I form an ACIM group, get another job, write a book? Please help me Holy Spirit. There must be something you want me to do while I am in the illusion. I am feeling so useless. Why aren’t you telling me what to do? Everyone else seems to be doing things of value and purpose. What’s wrong with me?

As I sat and listened, this question came to me from Holy Spirit: “What is Creation? What have you been learning?”

What, Holy Spirit, does this have to do with what I have been wrestling with? I am feeling restless and I want to do something. Tell me what I should be doing.

Again, the question came up, “What are you learning about Creation?”

Creation is a Thought. God creates with a Thought. The Mind is a Creative Thought and I am a creation of that Thought. But, Holy Spirit, ego uses thoughts too!

So what is a restless mind? A bunch of separate thoughts, confused thoughts that make me restless.

What is a Creative Thought? — It is the One Divine Thought that comes from the Creative Mind of God, the Inspired Divine Mind. It is the One Mind that includes all Peace, Joy and Love, which is joined in Creation.

What does a restless mind focus on? — Thoughts on how the body is to function in the illusion to make the body feel its separateness, it’s specialness and its sense of importance. It tries to use inspired thoughts and make them concrete and put them into some kind of form so we can have a special function in the illusion and build a better illusion. These thoughts focus on doing and not on being, not on Oneness, not on God.

Dear One, when these restless thoughts come into your mind, trying to figure out how to function and plan what to be doing with your life (your body), how does it make you feel?

It makes my stomach churn and makes my heart pump faster. I feel agitated and anxious and it feels yucky. I’m not at peace. I begin judging myself as useless and worthless.

Dear One, is this Creation? Are these thoughts and feelings coming from the Divine Mind, inspired Thoughts? Does creating with the Divine Mind make you feel restless, agitated and wound up?

No! So Dear Spirit, how do I stop this restless, uncreative mind from thinking?

Dear One, you can’t stop the thoughts from coming. Just allow them to come. Notice how the restless mind wants to take the thoughts and make them into a story and draw you into the illusion. Notice how it comes up with ideas that want you to fix things, rescue others or make you feel worthless if you don’t accomplish certain goals. Notice how these thoughts are focused on making your body better. Notice how these thoughts come up about past stuff or want you to make plan upon plan for the future.

But what about making plans to do something I think would be useful for the awakening of the Sonship, like writing articles or forming study groups or teaching classes on ACIM? Surely that has been useful for me when others share. Don’t you want me to share? Isn’t that my purpose — to share with others what I am learning?

Dear One, be honest. What is your motivation? Are you doing it because you believe doing it would personally give you a sense of value, importance and worthiness? Are you giving and sharing because you want something back, like appreciation and a sense of feeling valued? Are you doing it because you are having restless feelings and want something to fill up your time while you are in a body?

Is the thought of doing something coming from an inspired thought guided by your Spirit Self that is prompted from deep within your still mind, or does it seem to come from the part of your mind that is efforting, planning, anxious and restless? Be honest.

Now after noticing all this, just allow the thoughts that make you feel anxious and restless to pass through… When you notice resistance, just breathe, open and allow…

Oh, Dear Spirit, I’m quieting… I’m sinking below these thoughts… I feeling rest-full… peace-full… the stomach churning has stopped… There is no thought… Just peace… just Creation…

Thank you, Dear Spirit, for your gift.

An addendum:

When I came out of meditation, after speaking with my mind healing partner, Rev. Myron Jones, Holy Spirit led me to Lesson 65: My only function is the one God gave me. In this lesson it says, “The full acceptance of salvation as your only function necessarily entails two phases; the recognition of salvation as your function, and the relinquishment of all the other goals you have invented for yourself.” (W-pI.65.1:5)

The practice is to “try to uncover each thought that arises to interfere with [the lesson that salvation is my only function that God gave me].” The lesson further goes on to say that any other thought that interferes with the function God gave me are thoughts that “reflect a goal that is preventing me from accepting my only function.”

As I looked at these interfering thoughts with Holy Spirit, the lesson went on to say, “After a while, interfering thoughts will become harder to find. …On this clean slate let my true function be written for me. …the relief its acceptance will bring you by resolving your conflicts once and for all, and the extent to which you really want salvation in spite of your own foolish ideas to the contrary,” (6:1,4, 7:1) will replace illusions with peace.

As my journaling with Holy Spirit demonstrates, as I allowed these foolish thoughts to pass, peace replaced insanity. It only takes my willingness to allow myself to step back and receive the gifts of Spirit. The miracle was that restless thoughts were replaced with restful thoughts. From this peaceful place, all that I need to do and how I need to do it will be guided from the inspired Creative Thoughts of the Divine Father. “Thank you, Dear Spirit, for being there to remind me of my only function.”

Rev. Linda Wisniewski is a Pathways of Light minister living in Plymouth, WI.

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