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Study of the Text 7-26-13

III. Love Without Conflict, Paragraph 8
7-26-13
8 Watch carefully and see what it is you are really asking for. Be very honest with yourself in this, for we must hide nothing from each other. If you will really try to do this, you have taken the first step toward preparing your mind for the Holy One to enter. We will prepare for this together, for once He has come, you will be ready to help me to make other minds ready for Him. How long will you deny Him His Kingdom?

I completely accept that I must hide nothing from Jesus. I trust that he will not hide anything from me, but I notice that, in spite of my true desire to be completely open and frank with Jesus, I hide things from him through hiding them from myself. I do this when I look outward for the cause of my problem. I am pretending that there could be something in my life that I do not want. I still do that, but I am committed to preparing my mind for the Holy One to enter, so I am vigilant for that old behavior and willing to see differently.

Several things are happening in my story right now. One of my brothers has Melanoma and is going to have surgery Wednesday to remove it and discover if it has spread. My sister in law is very sick and seems to have given up hope. My brother, her husband, is facing some hard choices and is experiencing a lot of stress. I have had some financial setbacks. I am feeling the frustration of wanting to change my mind about an old problem, and yet holding onto it with equal determination. It’s like being in a fight with myself.

These seem like different problems with different solutions when looked at with the ego mind, but really there is always only one problem and one solution. It seems like some are more important; but actually, all are equal in their meaninglessness, because each is representative of an untrue thought. Nothing is more untrue than anything else; they are only either true or not true.

I am watching my mind vigilantly to stay aware of what I am asking for in each situation. I am striving to be as honest with myself as I can so that I can share with Jesus what is on my mind and receive his support and help. Yesterday as I was communicating with my brother about his upcoming surgery I thought I was fine on that count. But I noticed later when I let my spiritual guard down that I was full of judgment about his beliefs.

I thought I was asking for a miracle of mind healing for us both, but really, all along I was asking that I be seen as the spiritually superior of the two of us. I was asking for separation. This is why I must be vigilant. It’s ok, and I am not guilty. I am just doing what I need to do to prepare my mind, and I am willing to see what needs to be seen, and willing to accept healing for what needs to be healed.

My sister in law has been blessed so many ways and she seems to be determined to deny herself the benefits of these blessings. She is deliberately, though maybe unconsciously, choosing death over life. I thought that, once again, I was choosing the Atonement in her behalf, only to realize as I watched my mind that I was often choosing to see her guilt. When I asked for clarity on this I realized that she is doing what I do and she is doing it in such an obvious way that I cannot help but recognize it. When I felt anger at her behavior I was really feeling anger that she keeps showing me my guilt. Then I try to push the guilt on her so that I don’t have to see it on me.

Every time I think of her doing this, I see the guilt in my mind projected onto her and it seems I want to keep it there. I thought I was asking for her healing and discovered I was asking that she be the guilty one instead of me. But again, I want my mind healed more than I want to hide from my guilt, so I look at this with Jesus as honestly as I can. I see that the Peace of God cannot extend past my judgments and if it cannot extend, I cannot feel it. Wow! Thanks, Jesus, for that surprise insight! I give my judgment to the Holy Spirit so that it can be healed. I want the peace to flow unimpeded through me to her and to all of us.

Money has been flowing out of my bank account at an alarming rate this month. I must be asking for something I don’t want. I know I am asking for it because it is in my life, and while I don’t want the consequences, evidently I want the situation or it would not be there. Money is nothing. It is meaningless until I give it meaning. Evidently I have recently used money to prove that I am vulnerable to lack and loss. This cannot be true because it is not the Will of God. I change my mind about that. I choose again. I choose only what God wills for me.

This is the way I prepare my mind for the Holy One to enter. I do this diligently because that is my purpose. I choose not to allow the ego to rule my kingdom. The ego is in my mind, but so is Holy Spirit. I choose the Voice for God, and when I choose ego instead, I change my mind. Everything else is done for me.

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Study of the Text 7-25-13

III. Love Without Conflict, Paragraph 7, Part 2
7-25-13
7 It has never really entered your mind to give up every idea you ever had that opposes knowledge. You retain thousands of little scraps of fear that prevent the Holy One from entering. Light cannot penetrate through the walls you make to block it, and it is forever unwilling to destroy what you have made. No one can see through a wall, but I can step around it. Watch your mind for the scraps of fear, or you will be unable to ask me to do so. I can help you only as our Father created us. I will love you and honour you and maintain complete respect for what you have made, but I will not uphold it unless it is true. I will never forsake you any more than God will, but I must wait as long as you choose to forsake yourself. Because I wait in love and not in impatience, you will surely ask me truly. I will come in response to a single unequivocal call.

I am continuing to look at this paragraph because there were a few things I wanted to allow myself to contemplate. I sat with this idea: Light cannot penetrate through the walls you make to block it, and it is forever unwilling to destroy what you have made. I don’t think my ego mind really grasps this idea.

What I seem to understand is that I put up a wall between myself and my Self. This wall consists of separation beliefs, and the foundation on which it is built is guilt. It prevents me from knowing the truth and yet, as Jesus tells me in the Course, the truth is in my mind. So I see the wall as splitting my mind. This wall can be undone for me if it is my desire to have it undone.

The way it happens is that I notice a thought I have learned is not true, I ask that the thought be corrected, and it is done for me. I envision this as a stone being removed from the wall. Now I have more light and I begin to know more of what is behind the wall, and so I am motivated to be even more vigilant for dark thoughts. In this way, the wall comes down and without the wall of false beliefs, there is only light and I see clearly.

Since doing a lot of this work, I am less identified with the dark side than I used to be, and more identified with my awakening self. But I get confused about how to see this and how to talk about it. The Course uses capitalization to help me differentiate between that which is Real and that which is not. For example, I have a self (ego/body/personality) and a Self. The Self represents my ultimate true undivided One with God, Self. I think.

But the Course also talks about spirit. It says I am not ego, but spirit and I notice that it is not capitalized. I see it is not ego, but it is evidently not Self either. Something in between? Maybe like we can be awake in the dream, in which case we experience the real world, and we can be awake from the dream in which case we are out of the dream altogether. So maybe spirit indicates a state that is like the real world; not my ultimate condition, but not asleep in ego either.

I don’t guess it really matters what words we give it, and I don’t sit around worrying that I can’t understand. After all, who doesn’t understand? It can only be the ego mind. But it occurred to me as I read that sentence because I am not sure exactly what is meant by the term, light.

Light cannot penetrate through the walls you make to block it, and it is forever unwilling to destroy what you have made.

Whatever the word light is intended to indicate here, I read this and I felt very loved. I think that Jesus is telling me that I am treasured, and that I am powerful. Dare I say it, that I am like my creator. I think he is telling me that nothing in the Universe can overcome my desire even when that desire is not in my best interest. Not even when I have made something unreal. I made it and so it stands for as long as that is what I want. This is a Self that is so different from the self I have made that I have trouble grasping this. Truly, I must ask myself, who am I?

Then Jesus says:

I will love you and honor you and maintain complete respect for what you have made, but I will not uphold it unless it is true.

Honestly, I am crying as I read this. Jesus loves me, just like the song says. Jesus loves me, this I know, for the Course tells me so. (giggle) He loves me and he respects me and he honors me. Again, I must ask myself, who am I? I am not this ego self that I made and I never was. I never will be. When I read this paragraph I can hardly believe that I live such a small life and that at any moment I actually believe in it.

No matter how small I pretend to be, I am safe. I will never be forsaken. I am so treasured, so loved that no matter what stories I tell myself, I am still exactly as I was created. What a brother Jesus is! He found the way out for all of us and now he dedicates himself to bringing us with him. He is infinitely patient and he is only loving. He never loses sight of the truth no matter what crazy stories we make up.

He is the proof that I am not the self I made.  He is also the model for how I will live. The next time I feel like shaking some sense into someone I am going to remember the model Jesus has given me. I will love my brother and honor him and maintain complete respect for what he has made. I will not support the wrong minded thinking of my brother, but neither will I judge him or try to change him. I will know the truth and will hold that truth and wait patiently for him to find that truth himself. My knowing will make it easier for him to do that. My impatience would not.

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Study of the Text 7-24-13

III. Love Without Conflict, Paragraph, 7
7-24-13
7 It has never really entered your mind to give up every idea you ever had that opposes knowledge. You retain thousands of little scraps of fear that prevent the Holy One from entering. Light cannot penetrate through the walls you make to block it, and it is forever unwilling to destroy what you have made. No one can see through a wall, but I can step around it. Watch your mind for the scraps of fear, or you will be unable to ask me to do so. I can help you only as our Father created us. I will love you and honour you and maintain complete respect for what you have made, but I will not uphold it unless it is true. I will never forsake you any more than God will, but I must wait as long as you choose to forsake yourself. Because I wait in love and not in impatience, you will surely ask me truly. I will come in response to a single unequivocal call.

I read this paragraph, and then I went back and read it slowly out loud. I am going to copy it and re-read it often. It has finally occurred to me that I must give up every idea that opposes knowledge. I watch my mind vigilantly for those scraps of fear that block the Holy One from entering. I ask Jesus to step around this wall of fear I have constructed and to help me undo what I have done.

If I am ready to let some false belief go, I will be aware of it and I will ask for correction. Sometimes, I have some resistance and I will pick it back up again, but I will just repeat the process. I will do this as often as it takes to convince myself that I am ready to be free of the obstructing belief. Jesus patiently waits on me to be certain this is what I want, but then he answers me and does so as often as it takes.

There are some scraps of fear that I seem to need to let go in bits. I let go a little at a time. I peel back a layer and discard it, then when I am ready, I approach it again and work on the next layer. Jesus, again, is patient with me, and works with me as I take this gentle approach. He would not want me to move faster than I can do so without causing myself to retreat into fear.

The really stubborn beliefs, the ones I am most resistant to, seem to hide behind confusion. I will think that I just don’t understand. I will be unable to find the obstructing belief.  I will forget what it is I am forgiving. I will even forget how to forgive. The stories that represent the hidden beliefs may not seem like “big deals” but really, it isn’t the story that matters, but the belief that made the story. Calling it a little thing, unimportant and unworthy of my time, is just another way to hide the belief and prevent myself from asking for healing. All errors are equal, and none are bigger or worse; they are simply true or not true.

Sometimes I will ask for healing of something, and even as I ask I hear the reluctance, the lack of conviction in my voice. I hate when that happens because I don’t know what to do about it. I am trapped by my own foolish desires. That happened this morning. I asked Jesus to help me with a false belief, and I knew that I wasn’t being unequivocal, that part of me didn’t want the help. But I told Jesus that I needed help to let go of that reluctance. Then I had the thought that I know there is an ego desire to hide this scrap of fear, but I am not the ego and “I” don’t want it. I want to be free! I am willing to see whatever needs to be seen. Please look with me, Jesus.

I am going to stop writing this morning, and tomorrow I am going to take a second look at this paragraph.

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Study of the Text 7-23-13

III. Love Without Conflict, Paragraph, 6
7-23-13

6 No force except your own will is strong enough or worthy enough to guide you. In this you are as free as God, and must remain so forever. Let us ask the Father in my name to keep you mindful of His Love for you and yours for Him. He has never failed to answer this request, because it asks only for what He has already willed. Those who call truly are always answered. Thou shalt have no other gods before Him because there are none.

It seems obvious to me that when Jesus talks about the force of my own will, he does not speak of the ego will, but the will that made the ego. It is this self that must be willing to be healed before healing will occur. God will not coerce us into accepting His Love. We must decide on healing and thus ask for healing before we can be healed. It is this I do when I am vigilant for the thoughts that oppose the Will of God, become willing to release them, and so accept the Atonement.

I like the second line of this paragraph, which suggests that I ask God, in the name of Jesus Christ, to keep me mindful of His love for me and also to keep me mindful of my love for Him. In other places in the Course we are told to pray in Jesus’ name. I forget this most of the time, to tell the truth, but I like the idea that I am joining my will with his. When two join for the same purpose the intent is magnified, and when I join my will with the will of Jesus, I am expressing the desire to join my true will with one who has only truth in his mind. This has got to be a good idea.

Jesus also refers to true prayer in this paragraph. He says we should pray that we remember God’s Love, that He loves us and that we love Him. Often, in intent if not actual words, I pray for something that I think will take the place of His Love. I pray for a thinner body, more money, a relationship, that I will be liked and accepted, that my kids will be safe, and many other idols.

I don’t say these words in the form of a prayer anymore, because I understand on one level that this is not necessary, that all my needs are met in God’s Love. But every thought is prayer and my longing is a thought. So when I put my pants on and can barely snap them at the waist, I am disappointed and concerned and want them to fit well. This is a prayer and it is a prayer for an idol. It is teaching me that I could be happy if only my pants fit nicely and I would stop gaining weight.

Instead, I notice this thought and I remember that a thinner body is not the source of my happiness regardless of my present reasoning. I ask that my mind be healed of this belief, and I accept the Atonement for myself in this situation. Another way to say this is that I see I am praying for the wrong thing. I pray only that I be aware of my love for God and His love for me, because this is the only thing that will ever make me happy. I join my will to Jesus’s will in this true prayer.

I am happy to give up the god of thin bodies, and the god of finances and all the other false gods. I have been praying to them all my life and even when my prayers seem to be answered, the answers have never satisfied. In truth, there are no other gods, and I am just praying to illusions. There is only one meaningful prayer and that is to remember God’ Love. In His Love, all things are met.

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Study of the Text 7-22-13

III. Love Without Conflict, Paragraph, 5
7-22-13

5 There is a kind of experience so different from anything the ego can offer that you will never want to cover or hide it again. It is necessary to repeat that your belief in darkness and hiding is why the light cannot enter. The Bible gives many references to the immeasurable gifts which are for you, but for which you must ask. This is not a condition as the ego sets conditions. It is the glorious condition of what you are.

I still believe in the dark. I still believe in the ego belief system of separation. But I questioned that darkness and my little willingness to see through it has cracked it open and light is coming in. Once light shown through the shadowy darkness, I saw how insubstantial the darkness really is, and I long for more light. So what keeps me from throwing the doors wide open and allowing light to flood my mind?

Truly, I don’t know. I creep around in the darkness with what little light I will allow myself, peeking cautiously into dark corners, asking for the gift of clarity for this one little area, and then another. Never once have I regretted uncovering the deception that lies in the darkness, and never once has my discovery caused me pain or suffering. But the ego still insists that I am being asked to sacrifice my own will for the will of a vengeful and jealous God, and insanely I stand here cautious and uncertain, wondering if this time it could be true.

My progress has been slow, but it has been steady and certain and there is no chance I will creep back under the covers and hide my head. I want to wake up! It feels like it is time and I am ready, so I swallow my disappointment in my reluctance to just throw wide the doors and welcome the Christ with open arms. I continue the slow methodical search for dark thoughts and I try to keep nothing from Jesus.

Usually this is a pretty straightforward job. I notice that a judgmental thought about someone and I realize that thought, that bit of darkness, must be brought to the light. My happiness depends on it. Behind that dark thought are the gifts of God, but I cannot get to them while I cling to my judgment. Light will not penetrate my desire to hide from it. I’ve done this often enough to look forward to the moment of enlightenment as I allow the thought to be undone in my mind.

What I realize now is that bringing the judgmental thoughts to the light are helping me to wake up, but that as I continue to do this I am just poking around in the dark, choosing the judgments I am ready to expose to the light. This is why it feels like an endless process. I am being invited to skip to the end, to just pull aside the veil and welcome in the glorious light. Would I like to give up the very idea of judgment? With that gift, all the judgmental thoughts will all go at once, replaced with peace and joy, and love.

The thought makes my heart sing and I think, surely, I am ready now! How many of these useless thoughts am I going to uncover before I am ready to laugh away the whole idea of judgment. What has it ever gotten me? Why do I protect it as if judging were my last hope of salvation? It is not! The thought that I might expose the very idea of judgment to the Light swells me with anticipation, but then I notice that little reluctance hiding in my desire for light. It is not even a thought, just a feeling of pulling back. What? Am I crazy? Apparently so. Some insane part of me thinks there may yet be use for judgment.

I swear I don’t know why I fight for the right to judge. But of course, I do know. I just don’t want to look that closely. I would give the thought to the Holy Spirit, but I would be clutching it so tightly, He could not take it from me. It is like we were fighting over it, a spiritual tug of war, but actually I was only fighting with myself. I give it up. No, I can’t. Yes, I give it up. Then I pull it close, clutching it feverishly to my self. Stop it, Myron! Just stop it. Conflict is exhausting. I took a two hour nap yesterday just to recover enough strength to go to sleep. I am absolutely ridiculous.

It would make me sad if it were not so funny. I will not indulge the ego with fear of failure. I already fell for its story of struggle and now that I see it so clearly, I laugh at myself and I surrender. “Holy Spirit, I surrender my dark thought to you. I don’t know what to do with it. I cannot make myself think differently, but I want a clear mind. I offer you the darkness alongside my sincere desire and trust you know what to do with it. I want to let go of the belief I have any use for judgment. Please strengthen my resolve. Thank You, God. I love You, God.”

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Study of the Text 7-19-13

III. Love Without Conflict, Paragraph 4
7-19-13
4 You who identify with your ego cannot believe God loves you. You do not love what you made, and what you made does not love you. Being made out of the denial of the Father, the ego has no allegiance to its maker. You cannot conceive of the real relationship that exists between God and His creations because of your hatred for the self you made. You project onto the ego the decision to separate, and this conflicts with the love you feel for the ego because you made it. No love in this world is without this ambivalence, and since no ego has experienced love without ambivalence the concept is beyond its understanding. Love will enter immediately into any mind that truly wants it, but it must want it truly. This means that it wants it without ambivalence, and this kind of wanting is wholly without the ego’s “drive to get.”

I really get that all love in the ego world is ambivalent. There are conditions on even the strongest love I am capable of experiencing. For me that would be the love for my children. I love them so very much, and yet I feel that love in degrees. When they please me I feel the love more strongly than when they displease me. I hate saying that, but it is the truth. The love I feel for them is all mixed up with ego neediness and ego judgment. When I am able to detach from the mother role and think of us all as aspects of the same Self, I feel something that is much closer to actual love and that love does not waver.

Jesus says that real love is without ambivalence because it is wholly without the ego’s “drive to get.” Here is an example of how I see the “drive to get” showing up in my relationships with my children. For Mother’s Day, my youngest son sent me a really lovely card. He talked about what a good mother and good person I am. He congratulated me on my fulfilling spiritual life and talked about how it brings comfort and inspiration to others. It was especially touching to me because he recognized what matters to me and was willing to acknowledge it even though it is not important to him.

One of my daughters was there and I showed it to her. She was touched too, and then she said, “No wonder he’s your favorite.” I laughed at that and reassured her that I don’t have a favorite child. This is true because I love them all equally, but in that moment, she was right. In that moment, this child of mine had provided me with the ego need to be acknowledged and elevated. In that moment that made him very special to me, and so in the ego thinking, I loved him with special love.

Later I was thinking about loving all my children equally (maybe reassuring myself?) and was thinking about what I love about each one, and how precious each one is to me. Then I realized that this too is conditional love. It is not pure love without reason. I love this thing and that thing, each one being special in their own way. Real love, outside of ego, is pure and has no conditions and no degrees. Because this is not something we experience very much we don’t expect it from God. We tend to think that God loves us for a reason, and that what we do can influence that love.

Jesus says the reason for this ambivalence is that we hate ourselves, the self that we made, the ego self with which we Identify. I understand that, too. I have felt that hate many times. I hate that I am not thin. I hate that I am not very good at so many things. I hate that I have played the victim so many times in my life. I hate myself for being bad with money. I hate myself for never having been the kind of pretty I always admired in others. I hate myself every time I fail to live up to my spiritual expectations.

I don’t usually express it like this. I generally disguise the feeling and call it frustration or disappointment. I say, “I wish I could have”, or “too bad I didn’t”, but I really hate myself for my perceived inadequacies. Once in a while the barriers that generally prevent me from confronting my self-hatred break down and I rage at myself. Well, I used to do that. It hasn’t happened in a long time. And often when it did, it took the form of depression and despair, but these are just hatred and rage turned inward.

I think it is a good sign that I can freely write about and share these insights. I have been allowing my mind to be healed of the belief in guilt and I am learning that I am not actually this ego self, but am really spirit. This is the reason I can confront the self I made and allow myself to see the ugliness of it. It is not me. And yet, I still want to delete all this and continue to hide behind my well-constructed spiritual ego.

I do not love the ego I made and that is why I do not, while so closely identified with it, know what love is. It is why I am afraid of God. If I don’t love what I made, maybe he does not love what He made either. If I am so disappointed in myself, maybe He is disappointed also. What if a child of mine turned against me completely? Would my “love” turn to hate? Would God’s love turn to hate if I betrayed him completely?

If I don’t know how to completely and unconditionally love my children, it stands to reason that I would believe that God’s love for His children could be conditional as well, in which case I’m screwed because I obviously don’t deserve His love. Except maybe if you compare me to a serial killer or something, and so here comes projection and blame and specialness. This ego version of love and its counterpart, hate, explain a lot about human behavior and the fear of God we all have.

I am learning to let go of guilt and fear and I am learning that what I always thought of as love is not even close to real love. I love that Jesus talks about this in such a direct way, and that he lets me know I am not the only one who feels like this, and that it is simply the ego experience.  As my mind heals I am beginning to experience the love of God in little doses, as I am able. I am seeing very clearly what is not love and that is a good start, because seeing it is not love, I can let it go, and be open to another experience.

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Study of the Text 7-18-13

III Love Without Conflict, Paragraph 3
7-18-13
3 It is surely apparent by now why the ego regards spirit as its “enemy.” The ego arose from the separation, and its continued existence depends on your continuing belief in the separation. The ego must offer you some sort of reward for maintaining this belief. All it can offer is a sense of temporary existence, which begins with its own beginning and ends with its own ending. It tells you this life is your existence because it is its own. Against this sense of temporary existence spirit offers you the knowledge of permanence and unshakeable being. No one who has experienced the revelation of this can ever fully believe in the ego again. How can its meager offering to you prevail against the glorious gift of God?

I am spirit. I know this is true because I am told this by Jesus in A Course in Miracles and I trust the source. I have had experiences that help me to believe this is true. But I don’t live that knowledge of permanence and unshakeable being that Jesus talks about. The experience I have had of it does keep me from fully believing in my other identity, the ego. So I live this shadow existence where I switch identities, sometimes knowing myself as spirit and sometimes mistaking myself for this body I call Myron.

My spirit identity is such a happy place to be. It is peaceful and loving and while I am there I cannot imagine being anywhere else. But then I become afraid of losing Myron and so I allow my mind to stray to guilt or fear and I am catapulted right back into that body/personality that is the ego. And what is the ego’s enticement? How does it lure me back? What could be more tantalizing than happiness, peace and love?

I’m thinking. ~smile~

Jesus says that the ego offers me temporary existence. That hardly seems enough. Well, I think it uses guilt and fear to convince me that this existence is the only thing that stands between me and annihilation. It offers me a place to hide from my Creator. It tells me that I made a really bad mistake and now I am in trouble, but not to worry, it has a place for me to hide. God would never recognize me in this disguise as a body living a temporary life in a world wrought with danger.

Well, the ego’s got that right! I don’t even recognize me. I really believe I am this frail and vulnerable creature, and I find the idea that I am holy, that I lack nothing, that I could never be sick, suffer or die, that I am part of God . . . well, just ludicrous.  And yet, there is a little spark, a light that I cannot explain away. It burns in my mind and will not be extinguished. As I undo the ego beliefs, a little at a time, that light flares to life and I do dare to believe in the identity Jesus says is mine.

As I remember the truth I don’t turn from the ego identity, it just isn’t there anymore. I feel so happy to just be! I am so full of gratitude that it bursts from my heart and my lips in words and kindnesses and a joy I don’t know how to explain or what to do with. I want to share it and I long for everyone to have it. I write. I listen with compassion. I hug. I forgive unconditionally. I do what I can to give what I have. I must give it because that is the nature of love; it must flow.

And then just when I think I will burst from my ego existence forever, I scare myself back into the body story again. I’m small and safe from all this glory. I’m just little me and no one expects much so I can’t fail, at least no more than usual. I’m not good but I’m a lot better than others so I won’t be noticed. Jeez, it’s stifling in here.

How did I get back here? I was thinking about what I said to my sister in law and worrying that it was the wrong thing. I don’t think I was listening to guidance. I am so damned guilty! Guilty of not listening. Guilty for hurting her feelings. Guilty, guilty, guilty! No wonder I am hiding out in ego land. No wonder I am afraid to face God. I think it always happens like this. I think guilt is at the core of all things ego.

Here is the thing. I know the magic words to open the prison doors. Nope, its not abracadabra. It’s, “Reveal to me my innocence.” I know. It doesn’t seem like it could be so easy. But that’s it. That prayer, coupled with complete sincerity and willingness, dissolves ego doubts and uncertainties like sugar in water. Here I am, God, shower me with my innocence. Rain it down on me! I will soak it up and it will permeate my mind and bring me back to my senses. I am innocent. You are innocent. There is only innocence. All else is an ego illusion. “Reveal to me my innocence, God!”

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