Miracles News

January-March, 2025

Learning to Let Holy Spirit Take the Wheel

by Rev. Larry Glenz, Ordained Ministerial Counselor

Recently, I had given an interview with Robin Singler representing Pathways of Light for a video program entitled “Holy Spirit, Take the Wheel.”

I was honored to be asked to be interviewed. Then I started to think about some of the difficult times that I allowed Holy Spirit to do the driving. And I also thought about those times I had difficulty letting go.

I picked up the Course 30 years ago during my divorce with my first wife — the mother of my two sons. At that time, 1994, I believed I felt no connection to a Higher Power. But I was shaken by this severe change in my life. I was looking for something to give me the strength and confidence that seemed to have escaped me.

It was then that A Course in Miracles came into my life. I found it so inspiring. I started with the Workbook and have been a devoted student ever since.

My thinking started to change. I was practicing the instructions of handing my problems and my thinking over to Holy Spirit. I started keeping a journal and communicating with Holy Spirit through my writing.

I was learning that forgiveness was the key to happiness. Holding grievances was hurting my peace. I was practicing letting go of my resentments. I was beginning to learn the power of my connection to God.

That was the beginning of me letting Holy Spirit take the wheel. My life was changing for the better. I was recognizing that all the credit for this change of mind goes to Holy Spirit. By following the guidance of the Workbook lessons, I gained a strong connection to the Spirit within me.

Years later, my younger son, Kevin, shocked our family when we realized he had become an opiate addict. The seven years of addiction, rehabs, recoveries, and relapses was certainly the most difficult years of our lives as a family.

But I had a strong connection to Spirit. I handed my decisions as the father over to Holy Spirit. I kept a journal to stay in touch. I asked questions of Spirit, and wrote down the answers I received in my journal.

Despite the destructive behavior of my addicted son, I repeatedly received the answer that I was to love and forgive him. I was told that I have no idea how Kevin’s life was to develop.

Kevin needed to steal in order to feed his habit. He lied constantly and would say anything he thought I wanted to hear. Despite my deep fear and anger, Holy Spirit’s answer was “Just love him anyway. You have no idea what Kevin’s path forward will be like.”

I tried to keep Holy Spirit in charge but the fear in me did not allow me to let go. Half the time I was meditating with Spirit for answers. Other times I was in a full blown physical and verbal battle. Rage is a terrifying form of fear and I suffered from it.

After seven years of addiction, rehabs, recovery, and relapses, Kevin died of a fatal overdose of heroin. His daughter was only four months old.

I can’t imagine anything tougher for a parent to endure. But I had been trained to let go and let God. My family and I were devastated. But Holy Spirit promised me I would not be left comfortless.

I appreciated that I could hand all of my sorrow to Holy Spirit when Kevin passed. There was no better way for me to react. Hundreds of people poured out their love for Kevin and my family. It was that love that allowed me to heal. I wrote my only book, Forgiving Kevin as my way of grieving his loss.

Holy Spirit gave me the strength, not only to write the book, but to give presentations of Kevin’s story to many high schools, middle schools, colleges, and community groups for the past 14 years.

Then another challenge to my peace of mind surfaced. I received a diagnosis of metastatic prostate cancer. The cancer is in my lymph nodes. Handing this fear over to Holy Spirit was now my preferred process.

After three different forms of treatment in three different hospitals, I am now receiving the treatment of hormonal therapy.

Each day I ask Holy Spirit to take the wheel. I try to accept that He is in charge and not me. The years of letting Him take the wheel has strengthened me. I am not afraid. I feel good. And I have an acceptance that all is good today — right now — the only time there is.

It is all in God’s Hands. Studying the Course has taught me to accept this. And I am grateful for the love and strength I have been given.

Rev. Larry Glenz, O.M.C., is a Pathways of Light minister living in Long Beach, NY. Email: .(JavaScript must be enabled to view this email address)

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