Miracles News
May-August, 2024
Sea of Love
The tides of change in this world,
Beat you down in tumultuous waves.
Gritty sand blurs the vision,
Encrusting sight with indecision.
Swim or sink, is that the choice?
In fighting for survival, I lose my voice.
Drowned out by the thrashing of my limbs,
It dawns on me to relax, release, let go…
And I am carried to safety by the winds.
Oftentimes in this life we are presented with obstacles that seem so incredibly impossible to overcome. Loss, grief, fear, disease, sickness, financial fear…the list goes on and on.
In my repeated, and often very painful, experience it has only been in forgiving… in releasing…. letting go, and turning to Holy Spirit, that my faith and trust has been restored.
I have attempted over and over to try to fill the space within me that just cannot be filled with anything of this world. No relationship, job, drug, exercise, food plan, sex, vitamin, shopping, a dog! (yes, I said it – we have 8!) can fill that “God sized hole,” as I have often heard it referred to.
I had a dear friend “unfriend” me on social media because she said that she had no option to choose peace with all that she had going on in her life. She then proceeded to give me her laundry list of reasons why… a chronic disease, depression, limited income, no family, no one to help, etc., etc.
I (definitely the small “I”) then shared with her tips and tricks on how she can try. She became offended, as I am sure I would when dressed all up in my snazzy victim suit (I can still go there, to be sure!).
I wish that I had not responded and only loved her, but I wasn’t in my “right” mind myself at that moment. My job is only to love, not try to change, fix, make better…only love.
That was a good lesson for me, albeit painful. I’m pretty sure it is only the painful ones that teach me, unfortunately!
This leads me to the awakening power of pain. It will stop hurting once I identify the feeling behind my suffering and where it stems from and let that s@#$ go!
It has always proven to be a form of fear I am clutching protectively. I often get surprised when I see another manifestation of it sprouting up…like, “whoa, I thought we already let that go.” The booger creeped up on me again in a different guise. This continues over and over and over again as I imagine it will as long as I am in this chaotic world.
Currently, my husband and I are moving some great changes now (again!). Oh, what fun! he-he. He is exceptionally optimistic, though not a student of A Course in Miracles, he states that he is “by proxy.”
Myself, well, I am witnessing and forgiving, witnessing and forgiving, witnessing and forgiving, as often as is necessary to not allow this illusory existence power over me to steal my joy.
I know that no matter what, we will be okay… our true kingdom cannot be dismantled by anything here.
It can be quite entertaining to see all the different fears crop up; it’s quite the game!
Oh, there you are again! Time to go! I surrender you in the name of LOVE, peace and joy! Ahhhhh….Yes, that’s it! Relief!
I will never stop. No matter what. This ocean is not real.
Only the sea of Love can carry me. And when I forget, I will choose again.
I’m grateful that I can open up A Course in Miracles randomly to any page and be given a gentle hug of a reminder, too.
Rev. Maureen L. Yarbrough, O.M.C., is a Pathways of Light minister living in Yulee, Florida.
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