Miracles News

January-March, 2014

When Ego Rules

by Rev. Anita Ottley, O.M.C.

Rev. Anita Ottley It’s been a long time since I’ve written anything for the Miracles News magazine but recent events in my life inspired me to share an experience that has proven to be a valuable lesson for me. We all tend to get caught up in our day to day lives and sometimes when that happens, we end up losing touch with spirit. Ego loves when that happens because ego wants to jump right in there with all the judgments and negativity possible to keep us separate from one another.

Last week at work, one of my co-workers was having trouble with her laptop computer. The company utilizes a program called Citrix which allows employees that travel to access their desktops on the road via a remote connection.

When she came to me with the problem, she said our IT manager had told her that she never had an account. Ego immediately jumped right on that statement and I started searching my email archives for a saved correspondence showing the existence of the account. I found it and forwarded it along to her with a statement saying, “Save this email to send to John in case he has issues with the IT manager saying it doesn’t exist.”

After the IT tech was unable to get her laptop working, he said that she needed the Citrix login information. She forwarded the email along to him and that’s when I received a very valuable lesson about allowing ego to rein over Holy Spirit. My need to be right had caused injury to three people, not including myself. I had insulted the IT tech, the IT manager and caused more difficulty for the person trying to get her laptop fixed.

In any given situation, we have a choice to listen to ego or Holy Spirit. In my case, I chose the one that was not going to raise my consciousness or align me with Holy Spirit. I chose to prove I was right and in doing so, I proved just how wrong I could be.

What I got out of that interaction was a lesson that was more valuable than any lesson I’ve had in a long time. It might seem trivial to find so much truth in one simple statement but I did. That one line in an email humbled me. When the people involved were hurt by my statement, I felt that hurt right down to my very core. It was in that moment I realized just how far I had traveled away from Holy Spirit.

I can’t promise I will never slip up again but I plan on being more aware of my thoughts, judgments and negative criticism toward my brothers and sisters. While playing the game of “life,” I am reminded that we are all Spirit. We are all loved and it is my job to remain loving to those people in my life. So today, I choose to “be loving over being right” because in 100 years from now, my being right won’t matter. Since love is energy then I choose to leave positive loving energy after I’m gone. The daily battle with ego is a challenge but after this experience, I am re-committed to being aligned with Holy Spirit because being love is all I have to be.

Rev. Anita Ottley is a Pathways of Light minister living in Newark, New York.

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