A LETTER TO MY FRIEND
Dear Mary,
Sometimes when we are in the middle of something big, all we see are the details that are right in front of us. We can miss the big picture. For that, we need to move back, get some distance. This is very true of our lives. What is going on right now holds our complete attention. We are unable to see our whole story and how one thing led to the next and how each thing fits like a puzzle piece into the whole. I have written an imaginary story of Mary talking to Jesus at the close of her life.
“Well Mary, you said you could do it; that it wasn’t going to be too much for you. And I’ll tell you the truth, when you came to me with your intentions, some were concerned that you had bitten off more than you could chew, that you had chosen too many hard lessons for one life time. But you felt confident that you could do this and you were determined to get as much out of this life as you could.”
“Some of the others said that choosing to come as Black in this period of history wasn’t as hard as it used to be, but it was going to offer plenty of forgiveness lessons, and coming as a black woman would certainly keep you busy. But then you said you would be gay as well, and that really blew everyones mind! Too much they said, just too much. But you didn’t stop there. When they saw the family environment you chose to learn from, there was a lot of head shaking going on. But you and I agreed, Mary, that you could do this, and that no matter how you handled it, there would be so many lessons learned that it was worth it.”
“But look what you have done with that life. I could not be more proud of your work. Each thing that came at you, you used to grow and become stronger. I know how hard it seemed to you working the dense atmosphere of illusion and I know how painful it all felt. I saw that sometimes you despaired of coming through it, and often you felt like you were failing. But it was all just perfect. I kept whispering that in your ear, so you would never entirely forget. I placed angels all around you to strengthen and uphold you in even the hardest of the forgiveness lessons. From here where we were watching and supporting your every effort, there was nearly a constant chorus of ‘oohs and ahhs’ and ‘you go, girls’. No matter what the reservations were before you started, you had a regular fan club before it was over.”
“Do you see now, how perfectly orchestrated it was, Mary? You met exactly the right people at the right time. Some of them seemed unkind and even cruel, but those were the greatest of the forgiveness opportunities, and we are all in awe of how you overcame your pain to use these opportunities. Now it seems silly, doesn’t it, to be concerned at the seeming failures? You got from each encounter, exactly what you needed. There was never any danger you would fail, each person and situation was a chance to practice a process of forgiveness. There was no right or wrong, no success or failure. It was just practice time. Each time you came away with a puzzle piece in place. Hard to see that when you are in the illusion isn’t it?”
“You had hoped that you would make such progress that in the end, you would be able to share what you had learned in a more direct way, that you would be able to hear me more clearly and pass that on to others. Ah Mary, there was never any doubt. And you walked bravely through your fear into the place that allowed this to happen. When you were feeling overwhelmed by the process, did you think of Moses? I did. I thought about how he tried so hard to get out of his destiny. He thought that because he stuttered that would get him out of speaking for God.(Hah!) There was no getting out of it because beneath his fear was his comitment to the process, and the same was true for you, too.”
“So now, Mary, I, and all of us here, just want to say thank you. Thank you so much for doing your forgiveness lessons. Thank you so much for lifting yourself up, and for lifting up everyone else. We stand in awe of your accomplishments, and we thank you.”
That’s your story, Mary. I’m just passing it on to you.
Love, Myron
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