LESSON 145
My mind holds only what I think with God.
(129) Beyond this world there is a world I want.
(130) It is impossible to see two worlds.
Ultimately, there are no worlds to see, but for now, we have a choice. We can live our lives primarily in the world of ego, listening to that voice, letting ego interpret what we see. Or we can live in the real world. In the real world we continue to dream but now the dream is a happy one. We know the world is not reality and we know that we are no longer interested in what the ego thinks. We know who we are and we rejoice in that knowledge. But what we cannot do is live in both at the same moment.
I can be aware that my son has pneumonia again and I can be afraid for him. Or I can be aware that my son has pneumonia again and I can accept this unfoldment of his life as perfect for him at this time knowing that it will change and that his essence is unaffected by the body changes.
But I cannot be afraid for him and know he is safe. Two different worlds, two different interpretations of the same situation, but only one will be true for me. I choose carefully as I place my attention on one or another interpretation because my awareness is powerful. My happiness is at stake as is my evolution toward awakening.
Regina’s Tips
It is impossible to see two worlds. Attention will either go out towards the world and thought or it will go in towards awareness. It cannot go in two directions at once. Anything that keeps me from being aware of myself as awareness or as the watcher is a defense against truth for me.
My thoughts
This tip is the one that really stands out for me. When I reject the ego’s interpretation of Toby’s illness, it is an inward seeking that provides the alternate understanding of how to see the experience of a son with repeated bouts of pneumonia. I didn’t come up with that new interpretation by thinking about it. I had to become quiet and allow it to come to me and I could not have received it if I had been focused on the problem and how to fix it.
Manual for Teachers
14. HOW WILL THE WORLD END?
1 Can what has no beginning really end? The world will end in an illusion, as it began. Yet will its ending be an illusion of mercy. The illusion of forgiveness, complete, excluding no one, limitless in gentleness, will cover it, hiding all evil, concealing all sin and ending guilt forever. So ends the world that guilt had made, for now it has no purpose and is gone. The father of illusions is the belief that they have a purpose; that they serve a need or gratify a want. Perceived as purposeless, they are no longer seen. Their uselessness is recognized, and they are gone. How but in this way are all illusions ended? They have been brought to truth, and truth saw them not. It merely overlooked the meaningless.
Journal
How does the world end? Through forgiveness. The world is an illusion of sin and guilt and forgiveness is the illusion that ends it. Forgiveness is an illusion because guilt is an illusion and so there is nothing to forgive. The illusions of guilt and fear, sin and evil, exist in our minds only as long as we see a need for them.
When we forgive that illusion, the illusion of need, they will no longer exist. Without a need they are useless and who would hold onto something without a use? I love the ending of this paragraph: “They have been brought to truth, and truth saw them not. It merely overlooked the meaningless.”
We are learning to overlook the meaningless, too. We do this one thought at a time for a while and then as we see the connection, one belief at a time. If I think a friend is guilty and a relative is guilty and a politician is guilty and a criminal is guilty, and as I begin to see that what all these perceptions have in common is me, I realize that it is my belief in guilt that is the common denominator.
I see how that belief is the filter through which I see a world of pain and suffering, a world that seems to attack me at every turn. In the past I had tried to change the world, to defend myself from attack and it was hopeless. Now I understand that the solution lies within with the belief that sourced all of fear with its many forms.
What takes the place of guilt as I systematically release my belief in it? Love takes its place because it is love the guilt was obscuring. Love causes no harm. Love reveals our oneness and assures peace. Love is what I am in God.
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Contemplation of Deciding with God, Not Against God
To decide with God, I must let go of the insane idea that I am not as God created me. When I contemplated this the first time I felt like it was almost impossible. It felt like these ideas of weakness and sin are so strongly reinforced in me that I continue to return to them. But each time I made a choice for God, I became stronger in my faith in God’s Word, and the easier it was to turn from the ego beliefs.
Now it feels so much easier and my focus is on how very true this meditation is. I cannot be outside God because there is no outside God to be in. My mind is powerful because God is powerful and my mind holds only what I think with God. My identity is God because that is how
He created me, to be part of Him for eternity.
I still slip into ego thinking at times, but the truth is so much stronger in me that I don’t stay there. I realize that I have equal access to my holy mind and that who I am, my true Self, answers for me if I choose that. Occasionally, I feel like I’m stuck in my ego thinking but I also know that I can extricate myself through my desire for the truth.
That is my point of choice and it is incredibly powerful. I might feel like I am pulling against a great force, but if I persist, I see that it loosens and I am free. That happened for me last night. I was concerned about my son because he has been so sick and I haven’t heard from him lately. I felt myself falling into a story and I wanted out. At first, it felt like I was glued to that story and I had no control, but I knew that couldn’t be true. I kept my mind moving toward God and thoughts came to me that helped. Pretty quickly, I was at peace.
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