As I read the last paragraph of this lesson which says that I have no sin in me because there is none in God, it is perfectly clear why I am safe and could never be harmed. But that is not my experience so it must be that I don’t really believe this. I thought I did believe that God created me as part of Himself forever, therefore I can have nothing in me that He does not have in Him. Holy Spirit could you help me to understand why my experience does not match my belief.
You do hold in your mind the thought that you are created by Love as Love. You are able to understand logically that this means you are like God and therefore could not be sinful or suffer the effects of sin. However, that is not the only belief you hold in your mind. You also hold the belief that you did indeed sin against God, and that you deserve punishment. Therefore sin is born anew in your mind each time that idea is brought into awareness. You don’t notice that this is what is happening because the thought seems to take other forms.
Yesterday you allowed a memory to come up for healing. You thought about a time when you were younger and you were very unkind to your mother. Do you remember how you felt when you reviewed the incident in your mind? You said just thinking about your unloving behavior made you feel like throwing up. You felt very strong guilt, and it seemed to be about your behavior toward your mom, but this is just the mind replaying the sin of betraying God. All of the relationships in your life are opportunities to choose again to decide for ego or for God.
You were holding guilt so intense that the thought of it made you feel physically ill. That guilt seemed to be about your mom but that was just the form it took. The content is always the same; you think you sinned and so you think you are no longer part of God. This is the source of your guilt, your anger, your fear and all things that seem to hurt you. Now I want you to look at something else. There is a voice in your mind that tells you God is the source of your guilt, that it is God who is angry with you and disappointed in you. This voice says that you hurt God with your behavior and that he is going to punish you. In your mind, God becomes the source of all your fears.
Consider this instead: God has no part in any of this convoluted thinking on the part of egoic mind. God did not accuse you of anything. God does not care that the body of Myron was mean to the body of Mom. God does not even know the dreams of this illusion. He created His Son perfectly free and if His Son wants to play in a dream world and pretend to live and die and have dramas in between, God says yes, play away! But He does not become delusional about the dreams; God does not believe in them. Why then would He call you sinful because you dreamed an unkind drama with your mom?
Who then is the source of your fear? It can only be yourself. You source all that happens to you. Please consider this thought carefully: You source all that happens to you. If you feel guilty it can only be you who made yourself feel guilty, and therefore it can only be you who forgives. That is why the forgiveness of yourself is the first step in forgiving someone or something else. Forgive yourself for your projections onto others. Just as you have projected the guilty thoughts in your mind onto your loving Father, you are also projecting them onto the other dream figures in your illusion. Forgive yourself for doing this and there is nothing within you to project.
My dear child, you have no idea the beauty of God’s son without your projections to darken your view of them! As you continue your practice of allowing guilty thoughts to rise into your awareness and then forgiving yourself for your projections, you will begin to see a different world, and you will wonder how you could ever have thought your brother sinful. And as you allow your thoughts to be forgiven, you will be astounded at your own beauty as well. You are created in the image of God. Did you think you could be anything but beautiful?
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