III. The Decision for Guiltlessness, P 1
1 The happy learner cannot feel guilty about learning. This is so essential to learning that it should never be forgotten. The guiltless learner learns easily because his thoughts are free. Yet this entails the recognition that guilt is interference, not salvation, and serves no useful function at all.
Journal
I have often wondered if other people have had as much trouble giving up guilt as I did. There is not a lot of belief in guilt left in my mind, but I still find some there. I did yesterday. My daughter comes to my house nearly every day right now and spends some time with me. We talk and enjoy each other’s company, and I take responsibility for the baby at least part of that time. It is a welcome relief for her.
Yesterday she was doing something with the baby and I took a few minutes to take care of some business on the computer. She came in while I was doing it, and told me she was leaving. I felt for a moment like I was guilty for making her feel less than welcome. I might have felt guilty because I was tired and wanted some alone time and it was like she read my mind. It was silly, but there it was. So I released it and went back to peace.
That is the difference now. When I see guilt, I am willing to let it go. I have been doing this study for a long time and mind watching is a big part of it. For a long time it was painful as I saw so many dark and ugly thoughts in my mind, thoughts I had never before allowed myself to acknowledge. It didn’t have to be painful. I could have looked at the thoughts like I do now, as simply something that is not true and needs to be released.
I did eventually come to realize they were not even personal, not “my” thoughts, simply thoughts within the mind that represented certain unquestioned beliefs. They looked like my thoughts because of the form they took, which seemed to apply to my particular story. They seemed like my thoughts because Myron was thinking them. As I let go of the personal aspect of the thought it became easier to let go of the guilt associated with them.
Now I no longer struggle with guilt thoughts like I used. I notice them but I don’t feel a sense of shame or fear. If any of that shows up, I realize it is just a shadow feeling, a memory of guilt. It is easier to use mind watching for healing now and I learn faster without guilt slowing me down.
The main reason I know there is still the belief in guilt in my mind is that I still think others are guilty. I will read some article in the paper or read a political statement on Facebook, and there will be a brief flirtation with guilt. No problem; I see it as an opportunity to ask the Holy Spirit to help me see differently. Accepting healing is so much easier without having to overcome the idea I am guilty for needing healing.
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