II. The Decision to Forget, P 5
5 All attack is Self attack. It cannot be anything else. Arising from your own decision not to be what you are, it is an attack on your identification. Attack is thus the way in which your identification is lost, because when you attack, you must have forgotten what you are. And if your reality is God’s, when you attack you are not remembering Him. This is not because He is gone, but because you are actively choosing not to remember Him.
Journal
I have understood and accepted that when I attack someone, anyone, I am attacking myself. I know this is true because I feel the loss of peace and I experience fear, because when I attack I am teaching myself that I can be attacked. But what Jesus is saying here is a little different. He is saying that when I attack I attack my Self. All attack teaches me that I am something I am not. It obscures my reality because I am doing something that is completely outside my reality.
Further, he says that this is a deliberate choice. I lose all sense of my identity when I attack and I do this because I want to forget who I am, so I can be something else. I accept this as well. I do understand now that I am not this body/personality that I have so closely identified with. I understand that I wanted to have this experience and so I did. I choose to forget this and then I choose to remember it. Back and forth, now, as I begin to awaken.
Ultimately, Jesus is explaining that the real loss for us is that in choosing to forget our true identity we are choosing to forget God. We are, in reality, an extension of God. Our reality is the same as God’s and so to have a different experience, to know ourselves as less than divine, we must forget not only our identity, but we must forget God’s as well.
It is a little scary to realize that I deliberately chose to forget God, and that every moment I choose to see myself as a body, as separate, I am doing it again. As Jesus has told us before, we did not destroy God or lose God, we just chose to not be aware of God, so we are not guilty. But when we deliberately forget God, we become afraid of God, not because he is scary, but because we forgot Him.
The ego mind argues that I didn’t forget God, that I think of God a lot and pray to Him. But I don’t remember God. I don’t remember His nature. I don’t remember what it feels like to be part of Him, and so I don’t remember my own nature or what it feels like to be my Self. I am beginning to long for that memory to return to me. That has to be a good thing.
© Copyright 2015, Pathways of Light. https://www.pathwaysoflight.org
You may freely share copies of this with your friends, provided this notice is included.
Has this page been helpful to you?
Your contribution in support of this site is greatly appreciated. To make a tax deductible contribution or become a member online, go to http://www.pathwaysoflight.org/polshop/home.php?cat=254.
Or send a check or money order to Pathways of Light, 6 Oak Court, Ormond Beach, FL 32174-2623 (USD only, please) Thank you for your support.