V. The “Dynamics” of the Ego, P 15
15 The ego makes no attempt to understand this, and it is clearly not understandable, but the ego does make every attempt to demonstrate it, and this it does constantly. Analyzing to attack meaning, the ego succeeds in overlooking it and is left with a series of fragmented perceptions which it unifies on behalf of itself. This, then, becomes the universe it perceives. And it is this universe which, in turn, becomes its demonstration of its own reality.
Journal
I have been allowing my mind to see the ego attack on meaning in a larger sense. I looked at how it works at those times I am sick and those times I am upset with coworkers. I was thinking about relationships that have suffered this ego attack, and fear of lack and loss. But really, all of those categories are just more ego attack on wholeness.
It is the ego saying that a threatened relationship is different than when my income is threatened. So, I see all these different forms of separation, then I see the different stories around each form. The ego separates things until they are unrecognizable. What seems to help is to become willing to see the sameness in all things. Then the Holy Spirit can heal my mind of this insane fragmentation.
If I am caught up in the story, I will see only separation. I will see part of a story, and focus only on the part that interests me. I will see things through the filter of my beliefs so that what I see will be different than what someone else sees. I then wonder how it is that the other person could be so wrong when I find the “truth” so obvious. The level of confusion is so profound that I cannot find my way out alone. I need help.
When I ask the Holy Spirit for help with any perceived problem, He starts with me where I think I am and then sends me thoughts that lead me out of the story and toward truth. No matter what the story or what emotion the story elicits, it is never about that story. It is always about the belief that sourced the story and then projected it into the world. So He brings me to that belief and then I have the choice of keeping it or letting it go. If I don’t see the value in keeping it, the belief is removed from my mind.
Sometimes I have to go through the process a number of times until I finally decide that I don’t want it anymore. The point here is that the story I am experiencing is just a reflection of wrong minded thinking. It is an idea and that is all. It is either a true idea or false idea. The false idea doesn’t exist because God did not create it. So there is only a true idea. Wow! Look how the Holy Spirit undid the complicated and shattered meaning the ego tries to demonstrate, and brings us to the simple unified truth. Everything is an idea and only true ideas exist. Like it says at the beginning of the Course:
Nothing real can be threatened.
Nothing unreal exis
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