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3 Knowledge is not the remedy for false perception since, being another level, they can never meet. The one correction possible for false perception must be true perception. It will not endure. But for the time it lasts it comes to heal. For true perception is a remedy with many names. Forgiveness, salvation, Atonement, true perception, all are one. They are the one beginning, with the end to lead to Oneness far beyond themselves. True perception is the means by which the world is saved from sin, for sin does not exist. And it is this that true perception sees.
We do not receive Knowledge (note the capital K) while here but we do receive true perception as we are ready to accept it. I have said before many times that if I stop thinking for myself that knowledge would be given me. This is true because I use the word knowledge (without the capital k) to mean it is something that comes to me from outside the thinking mind. I don’t figure it out on my own, it is just given to me. This would be true perception.
It is very hard for us to stop using our thinking mind to make decisions and to figure things out. We have elevated thinking to such a point that we tend to worship intelligence and education above other things except maybe exceptional athletics and beautiful bodies. Do you notice what all our idols have in common? They are all symbols of ego, that is, symbols of separation.
It is very possible to stop using the thinking mind. It is fairly useless anyway. The intellect is just another word for a filing cabinet. It stores whatever bits of information we gather from other filing cabinets and makes it available to us to re-use, at least as long as the file clerk (brain) doesn’t fall down on the job. This was a perfect plan for the ego who is interested only in self perpetuation. As long as we are interested in this closed system we will never choose God instead.
I began my practice of breaking the information cycle by asking the Holy Spirit for His opinion once I had made my decision. Slowly I shifted a bit and began to ask Him before I made a decision. The final step is to ask Him for the decision. It wasn’t complicated. I just asked, “What would you have me do?” The answer I would hear would depend on how much I wanted to relinquish my own decision-making process.
I still go back to deciding on my own. It’s a hard habit to break. Only now I often notice and just laugh at myself. It’s so pleasant not to go through that cycle of guilt. The one that says I should have remembered. What I have learned is that I’m not supposed to train myself to do something or not do something. I just learn what I truly want, and the change happens without my effort.
I keep ambien with me and when I have those weird nights I can’t go to sleep, or if I am in a hotel with a convention of noisy drunks or giggling, screeching school kids, I have a ready solution. More than once the ego has suggested I should not be relying on magic solutions, but I have learned not to listen to ego and I am not interested in its offerings of guilt. I just wait to see what Holy Spirit has to say.
Last night I got a room near the front desk and next to the elevator. In the past when something like this happened I would go into my victim routine and bemoan my bad luck until the ego convinced me it was my just punishment for my evil deeds. Instead I waited to see if it was even going to be a problem. It was a pretty noisy place so I asked what I should do. No clear answer, so I took the ambien.
I had another reason as well. I have been trying to train my body to go to sleep earlier so I would have more writing time before I have to leave for work. So I take the pill as early as I can to get my body to sleep earlier so it will wake up earlier. (I don’t like to be jarred awake by alarms so I just work with the time I have when I wake naturally.) I have tried this before and it works for awhile then my body reverts to its preferred sleeping pattern.
So here I am trying once more to get a full night’s sleep and to get to sleep earlier. Again ego pointed its boney little finger of shame, but I ignored that. Then an interesting happened. The ambien worked but not until my normal sleeping time. This is not usual. I’m pretty sensitive to the ambien and even though it is a low dose I can only take about a third of one. So it is usually a very dependable method.
As I’m lying there watching this happen I wonder why it is not working as planned. The thought came into my mind that perhaps I could be using these mornings to learn to allow the Holy Spirit to arrange time for me instead of trying to do it myself through magical means. It might have been the ambien which makes me kind of goofy, but I said, “Holy Spirit, is that You? That sounds like something You would say.” I went to sleep giggling.
How lovely it will be to let go of trying to control my sleep cycle and to even make the decision that I need to do this. I just bypass the mind entirely, and allow myself to be lifted and carried. Funny ego thinks I should feel guilty for relying on Holy Spirit for everything (like I’m going to wear Him out) and that I should make these decisions myself. That has been its story all along, but it was an error to listen to that voice and it led to misperceptions.
Now I am learning to ask for reinterpretations of everything, absolutely everything, and it’s very exciting! I have discovered that it feels good and natural to relinquish my desire to be in charge and to allow myself to be carried. I am being taught, or maybe the better word would be given, true perception as I allow it. Thank you, Holy Spirit.
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