VII. The Two Evaluations, P 7
7 I have said that the ego does not know what a real question is. Lack of knowledge of any kind is always associated with unwillingness to know, and this produces a total lack of knowledge simply because knowledge is total. Not to question your littleness therefore is to deny all knowledge, and keep the ego’s whole thought system intact. You cannot retain part of a thought system, because it can be questioned only at its foundation. And this must be questioned from beyond it, because within it its foundation does stand. The Holy Spirit judges against the reality of the ego’s thought system merely because He knows its foundation is not true. Therefore, nothing that arises from it means anything. He judges every belief you hold in terms of where it comes from. If it comes from God, He knows it to be true. If it does not, He knows that it is meaningless.
Journal
There are two things I want to take away from this paragraph. One is that to question any part of my current thought system is to question it all, and to keep any part of it is to keep it all. If I believe that the neighbor who turns out to be a pedophile is guilty, then I will never believe that I am innocent, even if I believe that every other being on earth is innocent.
If I believe that my neighbor who doesn’t cut his grass often enough is guilty then I will never know that I am innocent, even if I believe that everyone else is innocent. If I judge either of those two neighbors, and only those two and no one else, judgment is still part of my belief system and I will always judge myself and believe others are judging me.
Thought systems are not a buffet line. I don’t get to pick and choose, to believe in one moment and when inconvenient to believe, in the next moment, disbelieve. Belief systems are whole. To believe any part of it is to believe it all. I have moments when I wholly believe what Holy Spirit tells me about my true nature and in that moment I am in Heaven, both figuratively and actually. But in any one moment I cannot hold two different systems in my mind, and to be happy, I must stop jumping from one to the other.
The other thing I will take from this paragraph is the simplicity of Holy Spirit’s judgment. He has one criteria to judge my beliefs. If it comes from God it is true and if it comes from ego it is meaningless. Because it is simple and straight forward it is easy to understand and simple to live by. The ego mind would make it very complicated and impossible to understand as it argued for exceptions and justifications. The spiritual ego would throw out desperate excuses for the one it could not forgive instead of simply knowing that if it did not come from God it is not real and so there is nothing to forgive.
I cannot yet reliably know what is real and what is not within my thought system because I am still too identified with ego. But the Holy Spirit is the truth in my mind and He will choose for me if I ask Him to. That is His function and He never fails to respond when I ask. I only need to notice when I am unhappy and realize that is not God’s Will so I must be thinking something God would not think. Then I ask that my mind be healed. I ask that my thoughts be corrected and that I see differently. I ask for the Atonement.
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