Lately my dance with the ego system has been involved with “planning” for a new home. I have had the idea that with a new house, I would have 2 separate baths, mainly for the convenience of 2 toilets, on the occasion when 2 people need to use the facility at the same moment.
If I did not believe that I am a body, that the body begins having more problems as it appears to age, I would have no conflict. Perhaps the ego wants a 2nd bath just to maintain another form of separation…?
There it is again, I think I need things of form to make me happy—yet trading one illusion for another is not happiness, nor will it ever be. Only truth will bring happiness. Do I choose more illusion or truth? The Course says that is the only choice I make, between truth and illusion.
I would stop giving my ‘power’ away to illusions, images, and fantasies. That is allowing an image or idea to dictate whether I will be happy or sad, fulfilled or empty, real or unreal. Every time I “see” the images outside of me, I’ve made a poor choice.
I am seeing the insanity of this idea of needing 2 separate bath rooms. In my experience, I have been temporarily satisfied or happy when I did succeed in getting what (I thought) I wanted. What I’m seeking is Love, but mistakenly thinking that Love can be found in form. The image or illusion never can fill the place of Love. Only insane wishes cause me pain. No one is doing this to me—I am doing this to myself. I can not mend myself because on my own I make poor choices. I must accept the reason and correction of a Teacher Who knows what is real. For He would correct every fearful and hurtful thought that I hold. As long as I hold onto that thought, He cannot remove it. I must let go, open my hands—which is opening my mind to His love and healing. I need His sight to see beyond the form of limited seeing that comes from limited thoughts.
My reminders with this experience are: 1) I do not need to plan for my future happiness.
2) God’s Will for me is perfect happiness.
3) Happiness is a choice, that choice is to see with Holy Spirit.
4) I will let this go and be happy.
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