I had the following thoughts come to me after reading the day’s lesson.
The ego is constantly planning for the future, for it’s protection. But this is a lie, for Love cannot attack, and Love has no plan for vengeance on me. What is forever untrue cannot be made true by sick dreams and ghost images.
I need only forgive my dreams that make an alien will appear real. I can forgive the idea of a will separate from God’s. I can forgive the idea that I am alone and homeless in a vicious world. I can forgive the idea that I have contaminated myself and made myself unfit to be in Love’s presence. I can forgive every unloving thought by taking it to H.S. If I see such an idea in my world, I can be certain it is coming from my mind, and can give it to H.S. for sure correction. I cannot do this on my own, but by telling Him I am willing and want a change of mind it is done. As I am willing to choose for Love, this is where my true power lies.
“Forgiveness is the only gift I give because it is the only gift I want.” [Lesson 297]
Everything I give I give to myself.
This idea is ignored by the ego system. Whatever I have lost or appear to lack in myself—is a lie. I can take theses ideas to H.S. too.
What comes to mind is the childhood I experienced. My parents were not expressive or demonstrative in affection. In my dream I made up situations that would “prove” that the idea I was not lovable were correct.
I learned that it was not appropriate to express feelings. If I would have come out and asked my mother why she did not love me, I’m sure she would have been shocked. Of course she loved me and my brother, but that was something that you didn’t talk about.
Thankfully, with my study of ACIM, I realized I held a grudge against my mother. I prayed for help to forgive the mistaken beliefs I had made up about her. After a month or so, I had a night dream that made the shift in my mind. Spirit showed me the truth. The next time that I talked with my mom over the phone, I asked Spirit to give me peace in place of impatience that I usually felt when she told me of happenings that I had no interest in. And peace I did receive. As the conversation ended, I told my mom that I loved her. There was a short silence—she was surprised by this expression of love—and she responded that she loved me too.
Spirit supplied the truth in a way that I could accept, and I am forever grateful for that healing. It became a blessing to tell my mom that I loved her. I would tell her silently as well as spoken aloud. I am grateful that I could express the thought, give her a hug, letting her mind know that she was innocent. In my mind, her mistakes were undone. Thank you Spirit, thank you Mom.
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