A New Way to See

Doing to Myself…Again

Lately my dance with the ego system has been involved with “planning” for a new home. I have had the idea that with a new house, I would have 2 separate baths, mainly for the convenience of 2 toilets, on the occasion when 2 people need to use the facility at the same moment.
If I did not believe that I am a body, that the body begins having more problems as it appears to age, I would have no conflict. Perhaps the ego wants a 2nd bath just to maintain another form of separation…?

There it is again, I think I need things of form to make me happy—yet trading one illusion for another is not happiness, nor will it ever be. Only truth will bring happiness. Do I choose more illusion or truth? The Course says that is the only choice I make, between truth and illusion.

I would stop giving my ‘power’ away to illusions, images, and fantasies. That is allowing an image or idea to dictate whether I will be happy or sad, fulfilled or empty, real or unreal. Every time I “see” the images outside of me, I’ve made a poor choice.

I am seeing the insanity of this idea of needing 2 separate bath rooms. In my experience, I have been temporarily satisfied or happy when I did succeed in getting what (I thought) I wanted. What I’m seeking is Love, but mistakenly thinking that Love can be found in form. The image or illusion never can fill the place of Love. Only insane wishes cause me pain. No one is doing this to me—I am doing this to myself. I can not mend myself because on my own I make poor choices. I must accept the reason and correction of a Teacher Who knows what is real. For He would correct every fearful and hurtful thought that I hold. As long as I hold onto that thought, He cannot remove it. I must let go, open my hands—which is opening my mind to His love and healing. I need His sight to see beyond the form of limited seeing that comes from limited thoughts.

My reminders with this experience are: 1) I do not need to plan for my future happiness.
2) God’s Will for me is perfect happiness.
3) Happiness is a choice, that choice is to see with Holy Spirit.
4) I will let this go and be happy.

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Choice For Denial?

After reading WB lesson 165, I had these words come to my mind.

“Let not my mind deny the Thought of God.”——“What could keep from you what you already have except your choice to see it not, denying that it is there?”——-

It is my choice to deny truth, deny Love because of lingering and devious hope that specialness can give me what I dream I lack. My silly thoughts, totally without meaning, cannot change or affect Love. If Love is unchanging, then I must be as Love created me.

Still I try to make specialness fill the lack I think I have or am. Any “relief” I perceive from specialness is very short lived. The respite from pain and guilt is meaningless because I have only exchanged illusion for illusion. Can this be do-able? Can this be sane?

If I deny Love, how can I possibly know Love, or recognize It? [Jesus teaches that I can learn of Love’s Presence by seeing It’s effects.] I can change my mind about what I seek, and seek what is all ready mine. With help from my true Teacher, I can learn the difference of false and true. I can learn not to keep fear disguised as love. Not to substitute pain for joy, tears for laughter, entrapment for freedom. I will stop inviting fear into my home, and welcome Truth, welcome Peace, and Love is then here, as It has always been.

How foolish and meaningless it is to try to ignore Love; to deny It’s effects; to keep pain and misery as my companions. That is how I truly “waste” time. If I will simply cease trying to run my own show, how simple and meaningful everything will be. How peaceful I will be when I stop making my choices based on bodily needs, on vacant dreams, on the past. Such choices are hopeless in themselves since they are based on nothing.

I need to constantly remind myself that I do have a choice. I can change the way I seem to think, and the way my day goes, by simply asking for and accepting Help. I do have the power of choice, to ask for the aid of my true Friend and Advisor. When I accept this Help, this relieves
me of the torture of “making life work” the way that I think (mistakenly) I want it to.
The way for me to accept this Help, is my willingness to spend some time with Spirit in the morning, to be silent and simply listen. If my willingness is not there, then the little mind runs it’s insane dialog, and I am entrapped. When my choice is strong, then the little mind is silent, and I move into Peace and Spirit shares whatever I may “need” for that moment or that day. That is not complicated in any way——Spirit always keeps it simple, I am the one that tries to make obstacles “insurmountable.” Thank goodness there is a part of my mind that holds the truth and never forgets it. Thank goodness, I can choose to turn to that place in my mind, and be restored to truth and Love.

Blessings to you all—- From Love & Mary

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