Realizing God's Will Is Oneness

No Meaning, No Judgment

No meaning, no judgment.  I see a meaningless world.  I see myself sitting on my futon meditating in my study, surrounded by my life like so many little symbols.  What does it mean?  I have no answer.  One of the ACIM lessons says this engenders fear for me because I think I am in competition with God.  I see clearly in this moment that I have given everything the meaning it has for me so that I may judge it good or bad.  Without any meaning, I cannot judge it.

I am a person who has always been obsessed with meaning and purpose.  It drives me.  And, of course, the purpose must be “meaningful,” of some importance, making a difference, “good.”  All as my ego would define it.  If something has no meaning and purpose, then why bother with it was my attitude.  Its not worth my time and effort.  This has led me on endless journeys of seeking more and better.  When I don’t immediately or easily find it, there is great anxiety.  I feel as if I am wasting my time, and worse yet, God’s time.

If I see the world as meaningless, there is fear, but there is also relief.  Relief that I don’t have the responsibility for finding and doing the “best.”  I am relieved of trying to understand the way the world works.  If it is truly meaningless, what’s to understand?

But, it is not truly meaningless is it, asks the ego.  Surely this can’t be right.  What am I doing here then?  Surely my life is important.  Surely it makes a difference.  Surely I must be me!  How can I survive and continue on without any meaning?

That is the point entirely.  The ego cannot continue without meaning; it cannot survive.  And so it imposes meaning on everything.  If I step back from ego and see the snapshot of myself sitting in the midst of my life and seeing the arbitrary meaning that ego imposes as all meaningless, I feel free.  I feel loosened from ego judgments and expectations.  I feel release of pressure to be and do in certain ways at certain times.  I feel freer of the need for approval.  I feel freer of good and bad, right and wrong designations for these terms have no real meaning.

For this moment I am free and enjoy my freedom.  And yet, this too is a judgment, isn’t it?  But, there is still a moment of fredom from ego concerns, recognizing they are merely made up from imposing meaning on the world I see.  I made it all up from ego.  I gave the meaningless meaning - I made the meaningless important and real for me.  I can choose differently.  I can let go of imposing meaning in every instant.  I can lay down ego for a moment and just let everything be as it is, without importance, without meaning, without reality.  It makes no difference because it is not real.  Unreality can have no meaning.

My ego has no meaning.  There is no way to judge it for we cannot judge the meaningless.  What standdards would we use?  There are none.  Wandering through life without standards of judgments would seem like a nightmare to the ego and so, of course, it imposes some.  But if we wandered more without imposing meaning and standards, what would we see?

If we saw with the eyes of True Self, we would see only freedom, joy, peace and wonder.  We would see with the eyes of unconditional love.  We would see with the eyes of tolerance and acceptance.  We would be in the constant state of asking Holy Spirit to interpret for us what we are seeing and hearing.  We would be asking for the healing, higher perspective to be given to us in each moment.  We would no longer trust our ego eyes and ears as showing us reality.  We would be constantly open to the Voice for God to lead our way.

And, we would walk in trust and gratitude for the joy we experience as we walk in the world of meaninglessness.  We would walk with Jesus at our side, brother and brother walking together, sharing our asking to see with the eyes of God a meaningless world.  We would see each other only as light beings walking in a world of meaningless symbols we made to confuse ourselves, but that we gave it up to be in love.  We gave up fear together to share the reality of Love.

I can walk with my brother this way.  I can see that in reality my brother walks this way as well, but sometimes his ego seems to block his way.  For this I have no meaning and so cannot judge it and I let it go.  I focus on reality, not the meaningless.  Yes, the meaningless engenders fear, but I can lay down the fear as meaningless.  I can walk in the joy of freedom.  It is my right and I claim it in gratitude that the way can be shown.  The Holy Spirit shines away all other paths than this one.  One path with my brother to Oneness with Holy Spirit.

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